A little over a year ago I started this web site and blog with the intention of keeping God’s blessings fresh in my mind to encourage me as we are on this journey of faith. As we have days of doubt and question our choices, it is very uplifting to me to keep these blessings close to my heart. It is an almost tangible way for me to “see” God. Even though we pray about our decisions and feel we are in God’s will at the time we make them, sometimes, the outcomes are not as we expected and we begin to question our discernment. Did we do the right thing by selling our home, taking our kids away from the friends and neighbors they knew for ten years? Were we right to quit our jobs and give up a pretty decent income? What about taking our kids out of their schools to homeschool them? Having another child? Promising our family a horse ministry that we can’t possibly attain on our own? Chris taking the internship position with VMM and Love Inc? The compass of our world has shifted to a direction we never imagined. Writing the blog has helped me to “see” God answering all of these questions and mostly in ways that were unexpected.
In 2 Kings, Aram’s army has surrounded Dothan, the town where Elisha the prophet lived. God had been speaking to Elisha and sharing King Aram’s plans to attack the Israelites. Elisha, in turn, had been sharing those plans with the Israelites, making Aram’s attempts to overtake God’s people futile. Aram learned of the prophet and decided to kill him. He sent his army; the full army, chariots and all, to kill one little old guy hanging out in his house. Elisha’s servant awoke in the morning to see the army surrounding the city and grew very afraid. Elisha, with God’s wisdom, told the servant to not be afraid. Then he prayed that God would let the servant “see”. Immediately, Elisha’s servant beheld God’s army that had surrounded Aram’s army and greater than any earthly army could ever be. You see, Elisha’s faith allowed him to see God’s army and not be afraid, just as the Bible reads in Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
I don’t know that I will ever understand why it is so difficult to trust in the Lord’s promises. Sometimes I feel like one of the Israelites, wandering around in the desert for forty years. Tangible miracles were happening right before their very eyes and they still had a difficult time “seeing” His hand in their lives. They needed to escape their captors, so God allowed them to walk through a sea on dry land and then crush their captors as they pursued them through the sea they had just walked through; the people needed guidance, so God led them by a pillar of fire at night and a pillar of cloud during the day; the people were hungry, so God gave them manna every single day; the people were thirsty, so God made water come out of a rock! Remember when Moses was gone (communing with God on Mt. Sinai) for so long and the people began to doubt? They made an idol because they didn’t think God was with them anymore. I don’t want to be like those people! I want to be one of the blessed who believe without seeing. To know that we are seeking God in all things and He is fully capable of and wants to provide for our every need. Sometimes, the needs we perceive aren’t exactly what God knows we truly need. Just like when my toddler thinks she knows what is best for herself concerning naps and bedtime. As her Mom, I know that she will be very tired and not enjoy our fun, family evening if she doesn’t take a nap. At 3 years old, she can’t understand that, so she gets upset. We have to trust that God knows what is best for us, even if we can’t understand what is happening, or in our case, what we perceive as not happening.
Chris and I know that God is working. He is stirring hearts to join His horse ministry. He is working to provide a farm for it and provisions to get it up and running exactly the way He wants it. Our job right now is to pray, learn, and believe without leaning on our own plans. To see the joy in our journey and be able to share that joy with our children. To live with our eyes open to Him.
As we begin to close our first full year of the vision of the ministry we have been called to, the vision has become much clearer and we feel like we are being given the green light to promote the ministry. We have come up with a 5-year plan, staff positions, and we are fine tuning the programming that God wants us to offer. We will be presenting some of this information to our amazingly supportive church body tomorrow morning and I will share those details on the web site very soon. Over the past few weeks, key people have been brought into our path and we know that God is teaching us and bringing these people to us to help us.
One of the more immediate things we feel God calling us to do, is to begin to holding meetings with people who are interested in supporting this ministry and those who are curious about what it is and how horses can help people. We will be able to gather, update, educate, and pray together. Stay tuned for details regarding this, we believe it will be sometime this winter that we are able to start these meetings.
I’d like to ask you to join us in prayer. Specifically, for eyes to see God’s plan all around us and trusting, restful hearts in those times that we can’t; for continued growth for Chris in his internship with Love INC; for clarity in our homeschooling path as we navigate what works for our family; for God to invite people to walk with us in this journey and for those people to be obedient to Him when He calls; and for a very healthy baby due in February.